Helping mentality..

I always think, if I ever was a teacher, I would have been a very lenient one. As a student I have always let my benchmates copy from my examination paper .Yes, all my answers were right. I was a very studious girl. I donno what exactly made me help my school mates, maybe it made me feel great, or maybe I just liked them thinking I am great, more of the latter. So just like any other day , today I went out of the way to help someone . My colleague was writing an exam, one which I had taken long back. Don’t ask me why we are writing exams in the middle of work. As I had written the exam before and as I am a good friend of his (for more reference on good friends read last blog) he asked me the answer to one of the questions. I didn’t know the answer –y? because I FORGOT. I have a volatile memory, me and my best friend have spend years trying to figure out why. I don’t mug up, cause that’s the toughest thing to do. And when I enter the examination hall I enter all-knowing, only to forget everything a few months down the lane. Sankar says we should learn to understand not to remember , but what I have concluded is maybe I am not passionate about what I learn. Or maybe its cause there is something wrong with my genes. I get very good marks in my exam and I know every nook and corner if discussed immediately before or after, but then boom! I didn’t know the answer, but telling him “I donno “ was a bit embarrassing for the 83 marks I earned for the same test few months back. I had to keep up an image in front of this fellow, he was my SL*. I told him I had to think it over went over to the next bay and asked a collegue for the answer(STUPID ME), he didn’t know the answer but inadvertently asked me who is writing the exam. I replied “what exam? I was asking to increase my GK”. This Mr Nosey went around and found out that the supposed to know-it-all SL himself is writing the exam , and had asked for my help. I am still alive and kicking because my SL is a true Christian and doesn’t believe in bloodying his hands. That’s the only reason believe me. I had written the same exam for two to three total strangers in the past few months. I had my answer sheet with me then, which I forgot at home today. I should have told my SL that I didn’t know, or even better that he ought to know. But I had to go out of the way , to help him and ruin it. I help people just to make myself feel better. I feel better most of the time, but when I try to impress people by helping them I fail miserably. FYI. I never help people in doing any sort of physical activity, ever. So don`t come to me next time you want to lift a couch or a spoon. * SL-- shift lead. I work in shifts, so we have managers for each shift. Hence the name shift lead